I am tired of being frustrated, confused and lied to about men, pornography and lust.

You have to learn to be able to take care of yourself in situations you wouldn’t always expect to be in. I can’t even begin to explain the heart sinking feeling when you turn up to set and the girl you’re working with is undeniably in better shape than you.

I love my relationship because my other half is just that, my other half. We split bills, we split chores, we help each other out, we buy each other gifts, everything is a balance, an equal partnership. To some men it can be incredibly intimidating to have a woman that earns as much as them, works as hard as them, and is as powerful as them. Or the overwhelming self loathing that occurs when you feel jealousy burning a hole in your chest, wondering why all your friends are booked for the same movie and you’re not.

I understand that it's hard to separate this kind of work from reality but if you want to date a porn girl, you better start separating.

Throughout my time in the industry I have dated on and off, performers and non-performers.

Recently, I scaled back my performing levels and decided to work on other things: writing, music, acting, and yoga therapy.

I have always planned on doing this and the time was right for me, but a lot people thought it was because of my relationship.He seemed lovely, sweet, funny, and physically ticked every box I could possibly have wished for.We fell into each other's lives with ease largely because neither of us were looking to be in a relationship.If you knew what my deal was going into things then you have no right to judge me.Actually, even if you didn’t know, you still have no right to judge me.Maybe some girls get into it because they want to make a bit of cash in a short amount of time, but to be a career girl, to be top of your game, this industry knows how to make you work, and after you work that hard it can be soul destroying to see younger, prettier, thinner girls booked instead of you.